Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween. I have lost my interest in Halloween related activities. I just don't think we are going to give out candies this year due to our loss. One way I feel bad that the kids are going to be disappointed but then we cannot do celebrations just yet. It has only been 16 days since my granny left me. I will have to leave a note on the door saying "No Candies". Today I made really nice penne-rosa noodles for everyone. I packed some for him....I am definitely driving to his place. The weather is so beautiful and its a MUST-DAY for tennis. I need to go back to my normal activities. I stopped working out and fat is sticking to my body. I have about a month and a half left of school. I just cannot wait to finish and then rotations and then DONE. Of course not done forever, I am starting masters next semester. Also, I did some cleaning since its trash-day today. Now I am about to clean my brother's extremely unorganized and junky closet. Wish you all a happy Halloween....hopefully no tricks and just candies.

Catching Up

Hey guys....Wow, It certainly has been a long time since I wrote. I am finally caught up in my classes. I managed to do good on the tests.

On Saturday 28th, it was my grandmother's funeral. It was from 3-5 and it was the saddest day for me. I was so scared when I woke up that day. I felt my heart pounding when we were driving to the funeral home. Just the thought of seeing her in that couffin. I was waiting out in the lobby while my mom and aunt were dressing her. I had to go set up some religious music in the background so I walked into the room they were in. I looked at all of them and I saw her for the first time. I burst into tears and I left the room. I couldn't stay in the room for so long. Every time I would go in there I would start crying. Then the ceremony was about to start and my cousin was helping me so much. She would give me napkins to wipe up. I was sitting with her and bunch of my cousins in the back. I just would start thinking about previous moments with her and start crying. I was waiting for my brother and him to come. My brother was kind of lost because he had an exam that morning. So he drove directly from that university. Him and his parents entered and talked to my dad on their way in. I was also waiting for them so I saw them going in and gave them all big hugs. My family is sitting there thinking, who is this boy. Of course, they have never seen him before. I told them to sit down and I sat down with him. He held my hand tightly and it was so comforting. Then I sat with my cousin for a little bit. Finally tears stopped for a little bit. It was so quiet in the room. All the ceremonies had been done. The pundit had left by now. Everyone was coming to say a few words about her. There was a nice introduction and her life in short words by my uncle. Then my cousins, my brother, and I said a few words. Then I heard my cousins, aunts, mom, uncle, and basically the whole room cry. There was a point where they took her away and put her in the car and drove (within the funeral home) to the cremation place. The boys/men were allowed to go in so they gave her a final bath with milk and other stuff. Others were waiting outside. I found the perfect opportunity to introduce him to some of my immediate family members. I felt a little comforted that everyone liked him too(not that it mattered too much). Of course my parents were telling everyone about us. We are getting together soon and that sort of thing. Then everyone walked back to the hall. Everyone came over to our house for dinner and we were running out of room. It was so packed people were sitting on stairs. Sunday was quieter until I found out my uncle had gotten a stroke and was in the hospital. He had been too weak from his mother's loss. That evening we went to visit him. They all drove back to their state on Monday and my sister also left on Monday. I spent Monday, Tuesday, and Wed morning studying hard for the test. I took the test that afternoon feeling unprepared and emotionally disturbed. I did not do so bad but it wasn't my usual A: ( Thursday I had a quiz which went great. Friday was another hard quiz and teacher had given so many handouts to study on my own since I had missed the last class. Friday night I got to see him:) I felt so good and it put a smile on my face. On Saturday, it was my granny's 10th day-ceremony. Everyone gets together for prayers for her. It was at my uncle's house. He also came with his parents. His mom sang nice prayers and so did the other ladies. Me and my cousin were giving out tea to everyone. My aunt also had called us all over for dinner that evening. Sunday comes around...for which I was waiting because I was going to see him. I drove to his place and we had a great lunch and then we went for shopping. I think we are crazy brand-name shoppers now. He got some Armani Exchange clothes and I got Guess t-shirt. We got home and watched some songs and then I came back to my place. Sunday went by so fast.

Today was a very hard-core lecture day. We had 4 lectures altogether for 1 class. Then I came home and just too tired to do anything. I feel a little relaxed. I burned some Cds for him and myself. He went to sleep so early today. I shall go soon. Tomorrow is a fresh new day and get a lot of productive work done. Aights, GOOD NIGHT to all:)

Grandmother left us all.

It was around 9:30am yesterday that the nurse came to visit her. After examining her, the nurse quickly told me that he is not doing well. We need to call 911. The ambulance came and picked her up. I called my uncle right away. He went right to the hospital. I decided to not go to my class and go to the hospotal to see her too. As soon as I get there, my uncle told me that she is very weak. The doctors had said she is having a CHF and had given the option to do open heart surgery. We all thought it would be too aggressive for her at this age. So they kept on her high pain killers for that day. She was just resting on the stretcher with her eyes open and trying to spit out the mucus. At this point, my uncle had told me to call my dad and other uncle. I did that right away and left messages for everyone. The family doctor was there too and gave me a big hug. They knew only a miracle could save her from this one. She was so strong even till the last minute. Everyone was so sad. Now it was me, uncle, and dad in the ER room. Soon after came mom, aunt, my cousin. Then she was moved to palliative care floor in the hospital. There we sat with her for long time. Around night time 8:30pm, we all left to come home since the hospital visting hours were over. My dad decided to stay with her for that night. We were eating and my dad called me on my cell phone and told me she passed away. My mom and aunt already knew because dad had called them at home. We had no idea since we were eating they decided not to tell us. But i found out when i was eating and I was so sad and shocked. That I just saw her, how can she just go like that. I even said good night to her. She said "good night" back to me. I left her thinking I will see her tomorrow morning. But she had gone away to god at 9:59pm. We all rushed to the hospital. We tried to go through the ER entrance since the other hospital entrance was going to be closed. I got there and I looked at her. She was lying on her bed peacefully. I gave her so many hugs and I couldn't stop crying. It was really scary when they bagged her up to take her away and keep her in the right temperature. The nurse had written the death certificate and gotten everything ready. She had died from Acute Myocardial Infarction, Atherosclerosis, Coronory Artery Disease. She was not in any pain though she looked very comfortable when we left her. I really will miss her very very much. May god bless her. This morning my dad and uncles were trying to get a funeral home for her. They had to find one with the cremation service. It took a long time to find one which was actually available. Finally we decided the time and place. My cousins and sisters are driving from different states. Some will be here today and some tomorrow. In our religion, we are not supposed to turn on the electric stove until she is cremated. So other extended family member made all the food for us today. Everyone is being so helpful. On a final though,
God Bless her.

So much happening......

It seems like I don't have time for myself. I have been occupied with school-work and my granny. Granny is completely bed-ridden. My parents, me, my uncle all take care of her. I give her bath every weekend. She is so weak. There is always a nurse, PT, social worker visiting her. I am trying to get someone to watch her while no one is at home. Yesterday when I came home, she had wet the bed and her clothes. She tried to get up by herself at times and falls and injures herself. The social worker just suggested some options. Nursing home, asissted living, or personal care taker. Assisted living or nursing home she would have a hard time because she doesn't speak english. Personal care taker from a private agency will come in and take care of her but they are very costly ($17/hr). The next option was to find someone we know who will be here for 4-5 hours on the days we cannot watch her. That will be covered under her insurance. Sounds like the best idea but where will we find such a person? So I will have to explain all this stuff to my parents and uncles and they can decide what they want to do. The social worker asked me if any other grand children were available but they are not even in this state. So I feel like I have so much to do. I am cramming for my tests/quizes. Tuesdays and Wednesdays go by very fast even though i don't have any classes. But I have to manage my time well. I have to study & do assignments ahead of time so that I am prepared completely. Hopefully my granny will have all the care she needs. Someone will be watching her all the times. She will be eating properly. Use the bathroom when she wants to. So I pray to god she is at the maximum comfort level till whatever time she stays here. Take Care and Peace.......

Praying for good grades!!!

Paraskevidekatriaphobia: Fear of Friday the 13th: people afflicted with a morbid, irrational fear of Friday the 13th

It really does feel like Friday the 13th!!!! Nightmare of the tests. Teacher took the revenge on us. I have been completely worn out past two days. I get carried away with my grandmother and her appointments. I barely had time to study for my exams. Ohhh, yesterday's exam was still good and I only studied for a little bit. Todays exam was super-duper hard. I mean first I get killed by the lecture exam and then the practial.

I was having chills thinking about the answer that I hope I get it right. I really really wish and pray to god that I get a good grade. For the practical, it was a final so I don't have anymore chances. It was really washing me out. I stayed up at night for long long times. Finally, I got done at 1 and I felt like a free bird. Well just till the next test!!!and then me and mom were off to getting medicines for both of my grandmothers. Ofcourse they tell you to wait 15minutes and we ended up shopping more than we wanted. I helped my granny pack her bag since she is living tomorrow: ( The other granny is doing much better, thanks for your concerns (to well-wishers). The physical therapist is so nice she recommended so many things for her. We ordered a walker for her so we can assist he towards the bathroom. The antidepressant will definately help boost up her appetite and keep her in better mood.

So.....HIM.....Ya, its been really difficult lately. I have been busy and so has he. I am so eagar to meet him today. I just love to give him hugs. It feels nice'n'cozy. We are going to go to BajaFresh and enjoy the time together. I should quickly do some assignments that are due on Monday. And I have a quiz....and again on Thursday and Friday...on and on and on...!!!! I cannot wait till this semester is over. Wohohhhhh, I will be DONE!!!!! Folks, yall have a gewd weekend.

Finally granny gets help.

Cute Dog from Canada

Today, a nurse asessed my granny. Now a PT, Social Worker and some other therapies are offered to her. They want to asess her food intake per day. They recommend lots of Boost-nutritional drinks everyday. I am very glad that she is improving. Lungs sound a lot better and I can hear her talk.

Yesterday:
I had to make up my lab today that I had missed on Friday. It was about an hour of electrophoresis and staining. Not bad. Now, My teacher showed such a concern about my grandmother. She told me what to do to make her feel better. That was very nice of her. Such nice things happen unexpectedly. So that incident I had wrote about earlier....She called me in to talk to her. She said, "How is your grandmother". I was a little shocked that how did she find out about her. WHo else could it be, it had to be my Prof. She felt so bad for me and blessed my granny. She said to me, "I don't want you to worry about your rotations. I want to decrease your least of worries by giving you the rotation you want." That was so sweet of her. I got it where & when exactly I wanted it. I was just great. Everyone was in their best moods.
This evening, also we played some tennis. And ate Pizza and Calzone. This was the first time for me to try calzone. It was cheesy. Yummy though. Then, he had to leave to go work out. Sleeping time for me....Good Night to All: )

His Favourites...

A Special Coverage on Him:
Description:

Eyes: Green; varies during the day
Hair: dark brown, curly/wavy when long
Skin: fair tone
Height: 5'8"
Weight: working on it, better answer coming up...

His favourites:

• Movie: terminator 2


• Plant: dog flower


• Car: Toyota Corolla


• Food: pizza


• Brand clothes/shoes: nike


• Color: black


• Song: "badan pe sitare" or "jan-e-bahar husn tera"


• Singer: Mohammad Rafi Saheb


• Sport: Tennis


• Players: Pete Sampras


• Secondary Players: marat safin, roger federer, rafa nadal, pat rafter


• Actor: robert deniro, jim carrey, arnold schwarzenegger, denzel washington and many others


• Actress: he didn't know


• Romantic Spot: anywhere quiet with me (awww)


• Person: me
• Quote: Coming up........
• Cartoom: Simpsons, ScoobieDoo, LooneyTunes

• Quote: none (told me to pick it)

I don't feel like studying...

Yes, I have been up since 11am and I have not really started studying. Its just that I don't feel that good and also feel lazy. I had so much fun that now I need some time to wear off the effects. I am off to a sweet nap. He is with his friends and they are treating him out to movie and dinner. So his phone is off since they are all watching movie. I dunno which one.

But here is a picture from Friday (his b'day), I spent 2.5 hours doing my hair. So I must show you the final result.

Oh Boy, I am spoiled.

I had the most wonderful time with him yesterday and today. I was a little sick driving to his house but a tylenol kicked in just when I needed it the most. I had a warm-welcome from him and his family. He was still at work. So as soon as he came, he opened the birthday gift from me and some other mail. He was in love with the shoes and I made him wear them. They fit so nicely and looked awesome. Then, it was cake-cutting time. We sat down ate it with so much love. His mom & grandmother had made really nice pakode which we had with tea. It was very refreshing due to the weather. I felt such warmth and energy after drinking and talking to them. We went out to and indian restaurent and had some nice food there. It was pretty chilly outside. We rushed to the car due to the windy+cold weather.

Saturday: It was excellent shopping day. I got Uggs Boots from him. That was so so so so nice of him and his family. I cannot believe ....we went crazy in shopping. I got so many gifts and money from his family. I am really very spoiled. I have never bought anything for me that is that expensive.

I had the best time ....Quality time spent with him! I really didn't want to leave at all. But I had to come home at some point. Ofcourse in the back of my mind was, making up lab+lecture, study for exams. So i have to dedicate today & Wed for studying. I just love the shoes. I cannot wait to wear them.

Happy Birthday to My Sweetheart

Special Stuff for Him:
IN SOFT GLEAMING NIGHT OF STARS,
MAY ALL UR DREAMS COM TRUE,
MAY EVERY STAR OF EVERY NIGHT BRING LOV N JOY 2 U HAPPY B'DAY 2 U...
(Credit: no I didnt write that, i got it from b'day sms)

Happy birthday to you sweets. May all your dreams come true. Which they are;) .... We are going to party tomorrow. If I didn't have that class on Friday, I would have been there already.
You know I am supposed to be studying for my quiz. But I am so excited to see him that I am going to flunk it. I picked out the outfit that I am going to wear along with sandals and nailpolish. Now...I don't know where we are going tomorrow but I get an Indian-vibe. He doesn't drink so cannot give him alcoholic drinks either. I am so tired of fruit-cakes. I want a nice chocolate-moose cake for him. Its just so hard to find. But hopefully I can find a good bakery near his house. I am thinking not to go to the class tomorrow. I still have that sore throat plus granny is not feeling so good. I have to call the doc for her to check her out. Alrights folks, see you all around. Have a great weekend.

I am at home and I called the doctor to see her. Hopefully he can come at our house to see her because she cannot walk. I had e-mailed my teacher yesterday and I got a confirmational e-mail from her saying it was okay. I can make up the quiz and lab and stuff. Although, today was going to be interesting lecture since we were going to have a guest speaker who is the director of the laboratories of pathology. It was on Cardiac Markers and Proteins.

Happy B'day to Sis...

I woke up this morning with a sore throat. I hope I don't get sick because I wanna be with him tomorrow for his birthday. Today is my sister's birthday who is going to have a baby in November. Hurray. I am going to be aunt all over again.

I have a class in 2 hours as usual. Btw, I got my result for the lab practical. I didn't do as good as I wanted. It was good enough for now. I gotta do even better for the next practical. The harder it is, the better I do. If I know its going to be easy, I lack the concentration.



Evening:

I just got back from school and I am so frusterated. I cannot believe I am not going to get rotations when I want and where I want. Its is just not freaking right. What the hell do they think f themselves? Why? why? Its bullshit. I went to talk to the head and she tried to explain me the situation like our group was not important and saying that "Oh , its Life..things like these happen". Hell NO!!!!! We get first priority. I want to curse the heck out of that biatch!!!!!! I don't have any extra time, I must finish the school by March so I can work and make money!!!!! And pay for masters and health insurance. They don't care, all they want is MONEY from students. I am so very disappointed. :(

Great Chilling Day

Some nice Roger Federer's Photos....He is my hot-looking hero. Boy, I am crazy for Roger..... And we are the same age;)


It has been a lazy day since 2:30pm. I went to the gym in the morning for swimming and jogging. That was a heart pumping workout. I felt gewd! I came home and ate and ate, watched some elen's show, Oprah, Tyra's show. I found Oprah & Tyra's show a bit depressing since it was all about suicides. I couldn't watch it. I was so happy to see his e-mail though....as I am writing this, He just called too. So he is going to live over 100 years which a saying I grew up with. Anyways, I am going to have to open my books now. It is almost 7pm and I have some crappy assignments to do. C U Laterz...

Got a headache.

Yeah, I happened to be his fan...

I have such a horrible headache right now. I just took a tylenol so I could do some activities. I had to go to downtown with my grandma who is 95. It was hard since she has no energy to do anything. She was sleeping most of the times. So we had t wait in the line to get some governmental thing done. There was a lady there who had a fit since they called my grandmother before her. She was acting like a biatch. It was some madness.

Gandhi-jee's Birthday

Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi was born on Octber 2, 1869 in Porbandar, a small town on the Gujarat coastline. He is known for his strong belief in truth and ahimsa. I learn so much from his principles.

The lecture exam was hard but I did very well:) Lab portion was a little hard too but I am waiting for my grade. I am off to a great workout and some swimming lessons: )

Simply Studying Sunday

Sunshine Coast, Australia

True that! I just cannot wait for this test to be over.